Speaker 1: 0:01

Hey, hey man. This is Big A's the Clip I'm the Big man. This is the largest fashion show on the podcast. Say I'm the Big man.

Speaker 2: 0:19

What's up y'all? It's your girl, dj Kornbread, aka the Ampers. Y'all already know what it is Back with another one. Dj Kornbread, aka the Ampers. Y'all already know what it is Back with another one. This episode is going to be more on your mother. I meant to drop this around Mother's Day. It was kind of hard for me seeing how I lost my mom, so it's kind of hard for me to push through when Mother's Day comes around. But yeah, this AP is going to be more touching on Mother's Day and your mother. I love my mother. I loved my mother.

Speaker 2: 0:58

No matter what you go through or what happens or what, you know, you always love your mom. You always make sure you. I don't know how everybody else is with their mother, but you know how it's. Sometimes it's so you know you and your moms might not see eye to eye. Sometimes Y'all might argue, you know, especially when you're a girl and it's your mom. So this goes out to all the mothers and all the kids that have lost their mother.

Speaker 2: 1:37

This episode is for you, um, I a lot of people. They don't understand why some people close up or feel a certain kind of way when it comes to mother's day, and I say that because when you are a person that everything you do basically is mainly focused on your mom, or whenever you do something or you get out the house or when any kind of holiday comes around, that's the only person you have to like spend time with, because you don't have any other parent or anybody else you know around. So that's really like all you are, you know, that's. That's mainly not all you know, but all you know. I mean it's hard when you lose that person because it's like who you go to for everything. When you have a question about something, if you don't understand something, you're stressed out. It's like that's who you go to when you have, you know, have issues you know. So it's kind of hard when that time comes around and your mother is not here because a lot of people nobody's going to understand you like your mom. I don't care what nobody says Like sometimes, like I say, even if you have those days and times where y'all bump heads or whatever, nobody's going to understand you like your mom, nobody's going to understand you like your mom. Like I have had I mean, I had so many arguments and you know things with my mom. You know when she was here and it was like nothing compares to how much I love her, loved her, and you know, I would give anything for her to be here with me.

Speaker 2: 3:20

You know it's just some people don't understand that because, like, if you, when you're going through things and you don't have anything but your mom or anybody but your mom to talk to and to go, you know. So what do you think about this? What do you think about that? Or why is this person doing this to me? Or should I keep doing this? Or should I keep acting like this?

Speaker 2: 3:38

For some reason I don't know what it is, but the moms, they always know what to say. Are they always there? Like I'm talking about get up and go get some wine or something to drink or whatever and some popcorn, or go cook, and I'm about to sit here and we're about to go over everything, all my issues and stuff that I'm stressed out about or stuff that's pissing me off, and I need to know what do I need to do. Do I need to go beat this person ass or do I need to just sit down and just she be like let God handle it, god handle it, you know.

Speaker 2: 4:09

So it's just like nobody understands and knows like how. I mean, I guess, until you lose your mom, like it's it's hard, like it's you have to sit there and think of all the good times and the good things that you did together, or go back and look at like the funny videos and stuff like that, because to keep yourself, like you know, together it's really really hard. Like it's really really hard and nobody understands you, like your mom, like you can be feeling a certain way about somebody. It can be about family, it can be about a relationship, but you always have when you had your mom to go to. It's just like all right, girl, I'm finna, pull up, what you doing? Okay, I just I need to tell you something. It's hot, there's information that's hot and it's like if you, if it ain't, you can't talk about it right now, or it'd be so good and juicy, you like no, we got to talk about this. It's like all right girl, all right for the best friend like you about to pull up and talk about it my mama, we call her big booty judy. It's like my friends call her big booty judy. They'd be like cornbread. I see where you get your that's, you get your booty from.

Speaker 2: 5:21

But yeah, like she, like she I'm talking about my mom was like, so cool I'm talking anybody that has met my mom or met her they were just like man, your mom was just so cool. It's like your homegirl, like she, that homegirl vibe, so it's like and a lot of people you know it's just crazy because they will be around my mom and they're like, they will be like I don't, my mom didn't act like that or I didn't have my mom around, you know, to give me that type of encouragement or give me that, to have that shoulder to lean on. My mom was actually like a mom to so many different people, people that have lost their mom, people who know weren't in the right, you know, getting along with their parents or their mom or whatever. It's just like my mom was there for any and everybody, like if they were my friend or they're around me and they, she. She was one of those people that even if me, you weren't cool anymore or I wasn't talking to you, she would be like that's still my baby, that's still my daughter, that's still my son. You know she was one of those. So it's like she didn't care about what nobody had to say and she would tell you. No, wrong is wrong is right is right. I don't care if that's my daughter, she would tell you like that was just her.

Speaker 2: 6:47

She was real like uh. I mean it might be them days where I'd be like girl, you need to stop, or you know what uh-uh, that ain't right, but but like. So for the most part I'm talking about like goofy. So I know that's where I get my goofiness from my kids, that's where they get that goofiness from. It's like I'm talking about she was one of those. Like yo, yo frown could get turned, will be turned upside down, fucking with her going over there, pulling up her ass. Like I said, even if I wasn't cool with you, no more, we weren't talking or friends or whatever. She ended up, oh you know so-and-so, pulling up on me and they miss you or they miss hanging with you or they don't know why you don't talk to them. Talking about she's one of those. Try to play, uh, a match maker and put people back together and make their friendships back. Everyone and I'm talking about she was on all that type of stuff, like everybody. Like I said, they loved her, like she.

Speaker 2: 7:41

When you have a person like that around where you can't even do really nothing. You know you can't do anything because it's just like she always making you laugh and she's just goofy and you know just you know people that just have those kind of those heart, that have a heart that you know. And it's a Libra thing too. She was a Libra, so and I'm a Libra, so Libras, we just you know our heart and and we just there. We always there for people. We always try to treat them how we want to be treated and people take our kindness for weakness and we should go above and beyond for people and try to show people this, this and that that we care and company them, them and they significant other or whoever, even if we're not with them or together, like we just always look out for everybody's well-being, like we just that's just us, and she was just that type of person like I know I gotta have. We had some fallouts at some times where I'm just like oh so angry.

Speaker 2: 8:38

Then you had those times where you know your mom be calling. You'd be like dang, you calling again, talking about blowing up your phone, like 24-8, 24-9, 24-12. But when you lose your mom, it's like I don't even care, I don't care about you, want them times back when they call and blow your phone up a thousand times a day. Call and blow your phone up a thousand times a day. I'm talking about I still can go back on my voicemail and just listen to my mom's voicemails from different times that she would leave me messages and stuff for me. Like, girl, I text you, I text you CB, answer the phone, cb, hit your girl back. I'm talking about all those messages and trying to wait to answer your phone. I got to tell you something here. Call me back.

Speaker 2: 9:32

Cornbread, thick, thick, cornbread fed. I'm talking about all types of stuff. You just go back and I don't know. You just reminisce on those type of things. You just go back and I don't know. You just like reminisce on those type of things.

Speaker 2: 9:45

And when you lose your mom and it's like you, that was the only person you had to talk to or to do anything with when you wanted to get out the house or, like I said, if you had those days where you wanted to, just I'm about to go, I want to cook, I want to cook for somebody. I ain't with nobody and I don't fuck with nobody like that. So I'm like all right, what you want to eat. You want some steak, you want some shrimp, you want some catfish, you want some chicken, you want some meat, what you want. You want some lamb, whatever. You want barbecue, you want me? I'm gonna come cook it up and we could have a girl's day, a girl's night, whatever, and we just about to have a good time, fun and talk. And you want something to drink? You want a daiquiri? I'm talking about it, just was.

Speaker 2: 10:23

It feels good to be able to have those type of you know that time with your parents. I remember your mom, um, and when you don't and it's like gone and you can no longer do that anymore, it just really hurts, like it's messed up because you don't know, I don't know. It's like it's messed up because you don't know what to do. People like you you're so used to doing that and talking to people and having conversations with them, and you know, and then when it no longer, when it doesn't happen, I mean when you can't anymore it's like you, you just don't know what to do. You're just like I don't have anybody, like I mean, it's just it's really hard and some people like they feel like a lot of people they don't understand, like why, why do you, this person, act like this?

Speaker 2: 11:13

Or why is this person, you know, like this when their mom is gone, that's who they, you know, spend time with, or that's who they, you know, whatever, whatever. When they had little, when the times that they needed to talk to somebody or they were stressed out, like when, when your, when your mom is gone, it's like I mean, what am I supposed to do? Like that's who I had, that was my bestie, that was my. Basically what they say like you ain't see your young, you know. It's like. When that person is gone, it's like what do you do? Like, when that person is gone, it's like what? What do you do?

Speaker 2: 11:57

So I mean, it is really hard to not have somebody that you can chill with and that you can just vibe with and, you know, just make a phone call and just be like OK, I'm about to pull up and let's go do this together, or girl together, or girl get dressed, I'm gonna take you to the movies and all that type of stuff. When you don't have that and you don't have anybody to have a conversation with, and let them know how you feel about certain stuff and ask them what to do, because you know you can sit there with them and have a conversation and talk for I'm talking about hours or you know hours or whatever and they're going to actually listen to you and tell you exactly how you feel, how they feel about it and what they think you should do and this and that it hurts because a lot of people, some people, they'll sit there and listen to your conversation or listen to what you have to say and really concur less. Listen to what you have to say and really concur less, like you can sit there and have a whole bunch to say and tell them and then you'll sit there and say this isn't it and say this isn't it, and then they really don't barely have anything to say to you because they really don't. They halfway ass was listening or they halfway ass don't even care. I gotta have people around me and they claim that they're my friend homeboys and homegirls and shit like that, where you sit there and try to have a conversation with them and honestly that shit go in one ear and out the other.

Speaker 2: 13:26

Motherfuckers don't care, they concur less. They all about they self or whatever they can get out of you or get from you. That's all they really be worried about and that shit is really fucked up, that people are like that. But I mean that's just people, that's how people are. So it's like when you can have your mom there or somebody you can go to, rather, if you need help or you have, like I said, questions or concerns about certain things, or you want to know, like, what's your sense, what's your two cents, putting your sense on this, putting your sense on that, because you might not have anybody to talk to, or you might be scared to talk to somebody because you feel like once I say something to them or ask them this question, they fuck around and just be on some messy type shit I might ask.

Speaker 2: 14:12

I really want to know, I'm really seriously considering this or feeling like this, feeling suicidal, feeling like it can be anything. And when you talk to your mom, it's not going to go in one ear and out the other majority of the time, depending on what it is. So you know anybody in their mama like they gonna sit there and tell you like no, they love you. And this is not where you should. What you should be thinking about, and it's what you should be doing, is, or you shouldn't be with that person. If they don't like this, I mean, they're going to actually have something to say and it's going to feel genuine, besides being around random people or talking to random people about your feelings, about stuff that you're feeling, or talking to random people about your feelings and about stuff that you're feeling, or it could be other family members that really concur fucking less about what you got going on, because it does not benefit them in no form fashion and they don't really. They really don't care.

Speaker 2: 15:04

So, like I said, I just want to give a big late happy Mother's Day to all the mothers and, even though my mom is not here anymore, happy Mother's Day to you. I love you, I miss you, big booty judy, and I made sure on mother's day I played all your hits when I was djing and I know you up there turning up and I just I love you so much, girl, and I just can't hear your voice right now. I love you too, cornbread. So I'm about to get out of here before I get really emotional and once again, happy Mother's Day, late Mother's Day to all the mothers and everyone that has lost their mom, and keep pushing. I'm praying for you guys and you can do this. I know it's hard and it just takes time. It really does take time. So I'm about to get out of here One time for the one time. Happy Mother's Day. Late Mother's Day, it's your girl, dj Kornbread, aka the Empress. I'm out this bitch Bye.

Speaker 1: 16:09

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